I seem to be good at screwing up,
Lying, cheating, backstabbing,
Yeah, that'd be me;

I keep thinking I'm such a slut,
Your heart I seem to be nabbing,
Regardless of your plea;

I just can not say no,
Even when I'm thinking,
This is wrong;

I seem to go with the flow,
But I'll end up sinking,
And you'll be gone;

I don't know what I feel,
Somehow things aren't the same,
Without me knowing;

I can't tell what's real,
I've been put to shame,
My heart rate is slowing;

I really did fuck up,
And I do regret it,
But that's not the issue;

This should be enough for me to cut,
I should feel like shit,
I should want to kiss you;

But I almost feel relieved,
And I don't know why,
And that's kinda scary;

I thought that I really believed,
Maybe I'm just too shy,
Then along came Terry;

It must have all just built up,
I must have snapped,
Momentarily lost my mind;

I felt like I was in a rut,
And I just couldn't adapt,
I must have been blind;

I want to love you with all my heart,
But I'm not sure I do,
Or if you still can;

I know I ripped you apart,
It's really not fair to you,
I should have had a better plan;

I don't want to be alone anymore,
That's what it comes down to,
I just hate it;

And because of it I've become a whore,
And didn't stick with you,
I deserve all I get;

There's no point dwelling on this,
It's over and passed,
And just a recollection;

Maybe ignorance is bliss,
But I would break fast,
And spill too much emotion;

You really don't want to love me,
I'm a slut, liar, and heartbreaker,
You don't need that;

You'll be okay you'll see,
Better off without a faker,
Be rid of the brat;

Maybe you'll forgive me,
Then again maybe not,
And that's okay;

It's my fault that I didn't see,
How I could have fought,
And found out another way;

I don't want to do this,
But there's no other way,
I can't stand the rut;

I'll probably never get another kiss,
There's only one thing I can say,
I just fucked up.