I can't understand your inability
to accept responsibility for yourself
your tendency for indescretions or the comfort
you find within depression

You may think I'm being callous
that I'm driven by malice
but you couldn't be more wrong

It has never been my intention
to appear that way
but there are some things I need to say
that may offend you

I think its time to be real
and tell you
exactly how I feel

To begin with
we no longer share whatever compatability
we had before
a simple conversation
even feels like a chore and

The tension between us
has become hard to ignore
we've both changed and
I don't know who we are anymore

I can't pretend its ok
for you to not follow through
to not be held accountable
for the things that you do
and what you don't

To maintain an attraction
with sustained satisfaction
I need a man who is strong in his convictions
who knows that for every action
is a reaction
and to not be swayed by distractions

A man who is direct and
says what he means
who doesn't speak in lines
that I have to read in between

A man who is aware
of the effect he has on me
hes not afraid to check me when Im wrong
or correct me when I need to be corrected
he shows up unexpected and

Pays attention to the words I speak
and doesn't evade me
never appears to be weak
is confident with his sexuality
and a bonafide freak

There is no shame in him
he has no game to win or issues
with morality...believes
its ok to sin....a little

He lives his life in reality
but has altruistic dreams
he has a higher than average mentality
with an idealistic theme...and

Im mezmerised by the sadistic gleam
in his eyes
its sexy that he sees right through me
and this disguise I ware
as he dares me to bare my
naked soul

Softly he takes control
as I give in to this power exchange
it sounds strange
but for the first time in years
I feel whole

The man I desire
always inspires me he
sets a fire in me
is not a liar to me or
vampire who drains me

He doesn't try to restrain me
from being exactly who Iam
myself

This is who I want
This is who I am
myself