Merry-Go-Round

The sentences with the * are supposed to be slanted, but since this site doesn't allow me to make them slanted u'll just have to imagine ...



I sit here thinking
Of my future
Of the following years
that are soon to come

They will approach
without asking
There will be no warning
Not any knocking

They will just pass by
and waltz right in
Waltz in through my
locked and chained up door

(This merry-go-round needs to stop right now ...
This merry-go-round needs to stop right now)

I do not want
to think of the next few seconds
The soon to come future
I try to ignore

But it just hits me
even harder
Much more than I
could have ever asked for

(This merry-go-round needs to stop right now ...
This merry-go-round needs to stop right now)

The schools of science
of math
of law
None are of interest to me
None truly are

I want to go
go out and see
do something right
for something other than me

I do not wish
to study some more
to work and prepare
For my future, this endless bore

(This merry-go-round needs to stop right now ...
This merry-go-round needs to stop right now)

This merry-go-round
needs to stop right now
All these preparations
I do not need
I will live life
spontaneously
Or else die
in this monotonous place

What I want
I do not know
I do not know
what I could be

But I’d rather find out
on my own
Then stay and follow
footsteps unknown

(This merry-go-round needs to stop right now ...)

And if you make me
I will rebel
I will fight back
I’ll make it hell
I will grow wings
and learn to fly
And then I’ll leave
without waving goodbye

(This merry-go-round needs to stop right now ...)



*We’ll just clip off
Both of your wings*


Then I will buy a brand new boat
a boat both big and grand
And then I shall sail this boat
towards a distant and foreign land



*We’ll just sink
Your brand new boat*



Then I will learn
I’ll learn to float
And I will swim
across the sea
I will dive in
and swim with the fish
With the colourful fish
who are all free to be

I’ll grow some gills
and swim until
I reach the land
that was meant for me

A land who's features
are now unknown
A land where I
shall build a home
A home that's mine
made with my own design
Where I shall do
whatever I choose

(This merry go round needs to stop right now ...
This merry go round needs to stop right now)



*You will not survive
You will just get bored of alive
and you will
never
ever
be satisfied*



These warnings of yours
I do not require
Let me follow
my hearts desire

(This merry-go-round needs to stop right now ...
Needs to stop right now ...
Needs to stop right now ...)

This merry-go-round
Is driving me crazy
Sucking out all the surprises
That should be my own

It’s causing this history
to repeat and repeat
Like an old and forgotten
scratched CD

This merry-go-round
needs to stop right now
has to stop right now
MAKE it stop right now

This merry-go-round
needs to stop right now
or I will end it all

I’ll kill myself someway
I’ll kill myself somehow

I’ll cut all of my veins wide open
I’ll drink every single poison
I’ll burn myself with a blazing fire
before I believe you
you liar

*Come with me
And I’ll make you feel better
I’ll write the family doctor a letter*

I am not unhealthy
nor am I crazy

*Then don’t kill yourself
Then don’t run away*

I can’t
I’ll suffocate if I stay

*Come, I promise
I’ll take you somewhere safe*

Don’t you understand?
How can you not see?
This place will just
destroy me
The constant action
that takes place
Will only drive me
further away
I promise you one thing
I will go insane if I stay
So fuck you
Fuck you and your ways

(This merry-go round needs to stop right now
Needs to stop right now ...
Needs to stop)