I dont want to be here.

The tears, they come like rain.
They drown my screams
For no one to hear.
And I’m feeling too numb.
I was drained of my own blood.
For no one to care.
And so the seasons came
And they went.
And I held those tears for December.
The winters touch, opened my heart.
And I began to pour.
I know this was unexpected.
And none of this makes sense.
But this is how I feel.
And I cant make much sense of it.
I just need for you to hold me.
Until this fear subsides.
Don’t leave me alone
To face this by myself.
I’m not strong enough.
I’m ashamed to look you in the eyes.
Because I know you wont recognize me.
A changed face, wont say for the better.
Because I’m not worth the lies.
I’m feeling alone in this bitterness.
Left to taste the world go by.
I’m growing up so fast.
In my fathers eyes.
And in my mothers face.
I see deaths shadow loom.
Afraid of what I see everywhere I turn.
I just want to go home.
To ice cream
And candy land dreams.
Please take me home.
Please
Take me
Somewhere else.