"Sinister Wine"

"Sinister Wine"
I apologize.
-To whom you freaking idiot?
To you
-For what?
You don't remember, do you?
-You made sure about it by sending me to the E.R
-So many times that I can't even remember that
-I am just being constantly reminded by them
Yes, I am sorry I did that to you
At least, now, people stick to you like glue
-Why does it feel like an anchor to my free spirit?
Anchor or not, those reminders, keep you alive
-So...
-So... I'm the one condemned to live
-Great job!
You don't remember, but at least, I did something good
I "anchored" you, and I turned you into a scarecrow
-Maybe, it's a good thing that I cannot remember
Trust me, it is :(
You, don't have to worry
You, don't have to cry
I'm the one that has to
I have to remember those tearful eyes when she...
She... used to make that same silent, yet deafening WISH
I kept counting the seconds, ever since that day
She would keep her eyes closed 4
She would ask me to to do the same thing
Every time a star used to fall...
14!
14 seconds of silence
Every time making a wish while crying
Then she would, almost instantly, put on on her smile
A smile that she had, and used only for me
-How can you still remember that number?
Because it is our birthday
Because it is was the first time that I noticed it.
It was her birthday
Instead of a lot of white flowers
That, now, reminds me of her innocence 
Accompanied by some ErebidaeTheophila plants
The only way to show a true Thea (Goddess)
Forever guarding her like the Erebidae (Iris) of my eyes
With which, she, similarly to the very fine Tyndall effect 
That made her elegant and mystique blue eyes
Scatter light even to the darkest moments of my life
Which in its most elegant form even slow down the centrifuge
Of my liquid, yet make me rise to heaven with her in my life Even solidify, and give a direction to my life