Verses of Self-Shame

By DarkJimpanzee95

I.Fear

I fear for myself
I fear for being too humble
I fear the judgments of the people
I fear I might break the shelf

II.Isolation

I isolate myself from the society
I isolate my heart from the one I love
I isolate my soul from the one above
I isolate myself from all reality

III.Cry

I cry on the pain it has given me
I cry because my heart is bleeding
I cry because I have none in my meeting
I cry because I've been hurt by my only fantasy

IV.Sleep

I sleep no more for weeks
I sleep the problems away but it stayed
I sleep all the confusion but it raged
Thus,I sleep my mind where no one seeks

V.Death
I'll try to kill myself
To end the pain my shame caused
To end my struggle where I'm completely lost
Thus ending this now.

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Published on Tuesday, July 19, 2016. Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

This is serious.So don't let shame and awkwardness take over you.

Comments on "Verses of Self-Shame "

On Wednesday, July 20, 2016, Just Dave (457) wrote:

You had me at 'Versus of Self Shame.' Self loathing is a brutal bitch. Love your honesty. This is what is so awesome about DP. Peace.
On Friday, July 1, 2016, lupus tenebrae (872) wrote:

I was in a similar place for awhile, in my own life, I figured if I pushed people far enough away they wouldn't be caught in the imminent meltdown, but those same people stayed and fetched me from the brink. Very earnest piece, stay for awhile, you'll find no judgment here.
A former member wrote: Very bleak and final. Also no skirting the heart of the meaning for you. Direct language. I like it. It also sticks with me how plainly honest your feelings are, and how well a reader can relate. Keep writing!