I don't learn

Hiding
All the pain
You will never know I hide
Inside of me

Numb
Fearing how I feel
Afraid of allowing myself to think again
Knowing How it ends

Tears
Why do I still cry
How do I still have wounds after all this healing
Its been years

Away
I need to get away
Before I start back down my own destructive path
I thought I had learned

Broken
How do you do it
I don't even know you any more
I guess years of what if

Repressed
Forced to heal too quick
I'm not prepaired to believe in love again
It always ends in

Pain