loaded gun

By Fallenfromgrace

                            Just when I thought my hell had ended,
it had only just begun....
                                    Drunken stooper,
                                                                  loaded gun.
There was no sad, regretful apology letter

                                                No sign of second thought,
                 No sign of struggle.
                                        He must not have fought.

                         My only prayer is that he's finally at rest,
no more trying to convince himself that he was only second best.

      The children miss him most at night...
                                                                             I wonder..
             Did he ever show them how to fly that kite?

                                    ........................................???

I'll add that to my list of things to do.
   Damn, I have so much on my plate,
                                                                         and now this heartache too...?
I know our life was hard,
                       but you gave it all up like it was a poker game!!
our life's contents are more than just cards.
                                      yeah, we were dealt a shitty hand...
but didn't we always have bigger plans?


The life we had to fight and battle thru
                 is now the same life you chose for your baby's too...?


and its all for what...?

                 A drunken stooper ... and a loaded gun.

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Published on Tuesday, February 19, 2013. Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

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Comments on "loaded gun"

On Tuesday, April 24, 2018, I IS ME (380) wrote:

Late with the discovery but all praises to poem of the day. We felt this one.
On Thursday, April 18, 2013, dwells (4177) wrote:

Painfully poignant and a good reason not to own a gun for many - they mostly harm the ones they were meant to protect, hugs!
A former member wrote: This breaks my heart, so sad, in my opinion suicide is soo selfish.. it makes my heart ache for the children. Thanks for sharing such a personal piece. 10/10
On Tuesday, February 19, 2013, Dreamscape (22) wrote:

Thank you for sharing something so personal and honest.
On Tuesday, February 19, 2013, RubyXero (481) wrote:

This just broke my heart :'( It's so tragic when people think that, suicide is the best way to go. And especially being drunk at the same time! You can't think right, your emotions are heightened. I pray this is just a story and didn't really happen to you...
On Tuesday, February 19, 2013, Fallenfromgrace (103) wrote:

I have custody of my two nieces because this is written in dedication of my brother. It happened a while ago, I am just now able to write about it. Thanks for reading.:)