Empty and lost inside
I had promised my self never again will i hide
But everything i have to keep deep within
Is slowly starting to wear me thin

How much longer must i hide
Before i explode inside?
I feel like i am playing with my own fuse
Causing my own abuse

Troubling have been my dreams
I wake wishing only to scream
But i remind myself to keep quiet
Keep my emotions tucked in and sleep by it

I shake and tremble
Grab my pen and pad and fumble
I try to be strong
Even when It seems like everything is going wrong

The ice cold blade freezes against my thigh
I know I told the blade goodbye
I hear movement
I toss it to the side as if there were nothing to it

You enter the room and hold me tight
I told you that i was alright
For at that moment i was
It reminded me that all that I am working for isnt a bust