I lost someone out there to that monster cocaine
that sucker of souls
that thief of the sain

its almost as if she crept in at night
and snatched him from under me with all of her might
i tried to reach for him
grab him
dig my nails into his skin
trying to hold him
save him from this monster sin

but there was no use trying
he never fought her
he just let her drag him out
he never said a word...
didnt scream!
didnt shout!

and when shed suck him dry
she would send him back home
she knew that she had him
his soul that she owned

you know...
i opened the door...our door...
time and time again
i would let this man out
then id turn and let him back in

and everytime he would take off
he would take just a part
these pieces of me
that he stole from my heart

finally i decided i would fight her
with all that i had learned
i was gonna save my sons father
no matter how much it burned

i was determind to rescue him
and bring him back home
hed no longer be hostage
and hed follow me home

so i marched to the monsters house
banged the dust off her door
i kicked in the entry
and crawled on the floor

i searched for him franticaly
i looked here and there
but then i noticed him sitting
comfortably in this chair

you see i brought him these pictures
of our baby boy
and i begged
and i pleaded
and i urged a bit more

but he just sat there staring
not saying a word
his eyes were apoligetic
but not really concerned
i wanted to grab him
and shake him
force him out the door
but he wasnt restrained!
he wasnt tied to the floor!
the escape was so clear...
up and out the damn door!!!

my heart broke to pieces
when the realization came to
that this man i loved
was not leaving
and there was nothing i could do

so i turned and i left him
in our house that faitful day
there was nothing more that i could do
nothing left that i could say
it killed me to leave him...
there
right inside
it took everything i had
filled with guilt
all my love
and all my pride

sadly ...
i think of him often
i still whisper his beautiful name
and i wonder if he hears me...
if hes tired of the pain?

i lost someone out there
to that monster cocaine
that sucker of the souls..
that thief of the sain.