disorderly- asylum door #12

abu*lia

(noun)

: abnormal lack of ability to act or to make decisions characteristic of certain psychotic and neurotic conditions.

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i step out the door

left || right
right ||left

and i try to decide
which way i want to go today
and am i hungry
or thirsty

food || drink
drink || food

and what time is is
anyway?
maybe i ought to wait
a little while

now || later
later || now

before i eat
in cause i want
to go swimming

swim ||stay
stay ||swim

but what if there
are people
i don't like there?
i might want
to avoid them

encounter || avoid
avoid || encounter

so i think about it

yes || no
no || yes

and i decide to go inside
and sit
and maybe watch
a movie

comedy || drama
drama ||comedy

at last
i just feel
so
so
tired

so i take a little
nap

over covers || under covers
under covers || over covers

not
exactly
indecisive

yes i am || no i'm not
no i'm not || yes i am

i just have
a little
trouble
making up my mind