Open Mic (rap #3 untitled)

I'm so sick of all the drama
someone bring me some marijuana
or fucking xanax, liquor
anything to help myself

Maybe not physically, but emotionally anyways
There's a lot of roads to take
but I don't care what anybody says
can't know for sure
if you are going the right way
but there is pain I need to numb
and maybe then I'll feel okay

I'm an addict bitch - I admit
yet it's so easy
cuz friends with drugs
they just will give it to me
anything I want, anything I need
xanax bars, alcohol
sex, weed, and such
there is a lot of shit
I'm doing and I'm doing
way too much

To the point
where I lose trust
my family won't keep in touch
and it's all over doing
this stupid fucking stuff

I didn't want to
yet in a way, I kinda did
I surely love to get high
it is no secret hid

but what can you do
when your life
is just so shitty
I'm not trying to complain
so spare me
your bullshit pity

I just wanted to vent
I wish you knew
what I meant
where the hell
has the time went
so many wasted days I spent

Smoke some weed
take some shots
pop a pill til I forget
theses memories will kill
and I can't deal
with all this shit

and I don't really care
however crazy I may seem
At least I have a fucking talent
I'm gonna follow my dream