fractured mind

 i get it its all ok 
if i conform will you stay?
please just tell me how
i see i am wrong why cant you just stay
mind is damaged all broken now
i sit and watch you pack your things ..
a giggle escapes tho i cant seem to smile
your words are like hollow stings 
my senses are numb 
so i dont feel there sting
even as you toss in the can your diamond ring
i start to plead ..please just stay 
your sneer makes the cloud dissapear 
a voice in my mind says do not fear
we can win ..by the end of this day 
i stand and move all at once 
i see your face start to fade
from snide sneer to scared little deer
i try to smile but im sure its a grimace
you walk back and bump the wall 
as my hands cover your mouth so no one will hear 
as i touch i see your distaste
i whisper i love you into your ear 
i drag her out of the room into the hall
like a soft waltz i move soft and strong 
turning and smiling i raise you up
what is wrong my dear are you afraid you might fall?
i promise my dear this wont take to long 
the voice in my head is laughing with glee
the pain in my head i wish it would shut up
now i can see ..i will show you all
i leap off the railing ..you go with me 
as your scream fills the air 
just before bottom
my hand it strokes your golden hair 
now we are there all dead and rotten