My Ultimatum

My mind is racing,
My hands are shaking,
My arms are flowing with blood,
The tears I will never shed.

I glance o’er to the counter top,
Blood is smeared around the metallic blade
In which I swore I’d never touch,

I look in the mirror,
And all I see is black,
Black heart
And black eyes

When will this torment end?
When will I learn to feel again?
Oh the visions haunt me through the night,
And now I shall rid this blight

Ran through paper with my pen,
Laughing at those I learned to hate,
And caressing those I don’t.
This is my final good-bye.

I knew my time was near,
My silent depression and anger has taken control,
This shall be my demise, my ultimatum,
My end,
The death of me.