Peace(ful) at last...

Not quite full circle
More of a culmination -- a redirect, a synergistic critical mass-shift
Not quite painless, yet not unforgiving nor without cost
In pride, in mistaken judgment...
In misplaced perspective, not a new course, per se, but
A new set of triggers to contemplate, to enjoy, to savor

So quaint a discovery
Not exactly a surprise, given the hindsight now apparent
This was not your journey,
And as much as I hate to admit it, not exactly ours
My own, it seems, to own
I'm the one with the demons to hold at bay

I might have lost you, us
I might have gained a better self
I don't know if either case is set in stone, cemented, cured
I do know that I am happy for the release
Happy, that I no longer have to hide away my feelings
Happy that I am able to present to you a more complete picture

I might end up pushing you away
Even as I thought you were doing the same to me
But I'm on my path now, the path we gave me
I'm not afraid to walk it
Sure, you might reject my advance, but I no longer harber that
Particular fear -- rejection no longer holds me in its chains

You think, believe, state -- emphatically
That I am changing behavior only to please you
That it is a recent set of feelings, a recent conditional episode
But it is not my burden to prove otherwise, to get you to
Recognize, that this is not a change in who I am, but where I am
I don't have to prove to anyone, even myself, how I truly feel

At peace am I -- no longer just content

I truly
Worship
The very ground
You walk upon, so
Sweetly, so
Gracefully


Glistening...


Radiant...


Beautiful...


Blissful...




...Peace(ful)