I walked to hell today with your name on my lips,

where...

semen soaked childhood spoke like rust in my head,
while the grease ground held me tight like magnet sick,

where...

I carried your soft eyes in my hands to light the dim darkness
where dreams fade and light ebbs into the fading light of winters web
where the faces blur blind to binding blindness and angels hopes are dead

where my horrors play with kinder toys
where boys and girls are fed to girls and boys
where nightmares cease ceaselessly to be dreams
and the real hurt never ends
and the real monsters are the ones you can feel but can never see

I carried you with me

I walk through the dark between the day and dawn where real hell spawns

I waited there waiting for hell to come

and I said your name

and smiled