Here I am now

Here I am now,
fixated, motivated
by your stipulated,
irrigated, masturbated
corrugated, psycho-related
hypnotismic dreams.
You suck my life from me.
Grind my teeth
in orgasmic frustration,
hatred oozes from pussed pores,
and yes I do see you,
here I am now.

Caress this buttress,
hose this god-damn prose,
I'm deep within this muck,
my friends just fuck.
With my head,
with my mind,
cradle arms like babies
destined to die infantile,
and ooooh, you are vile.
Ha, where's the humour little Oz?
Is this you who is laughing now?
Look what you've done to us,
see these crazy eyes,
this evil glint I grin,
these small fingers slapping keys,
ooh, my love, my rapist of the world.
Caress this decay.

My smirk would wipe
grey dirt through this hype,
simple words mean little
in this cynical, satirical,
empirical earth.
Earth? Ha, you do
give yourself flair,
oh yes my sweet,
see yourself debonair.
This sucked dirt,
these dying organisms,
innocents slayed again.
Kill, rape, ravage, hate,
lust, slaughter, tear,
smear the bloody earth
in your greed.
Take my body as well,
the hatred in my eyes
shows my fall from glory,
now I want to do the same,
to feel that power within my grasp.
Sweet baby, where did you go?

Oh suicide, can I come home now?
Waiting for your forgiveness,
will you give me another chance?

Here I am now.