Dead

barrel pressed to my head
finger teasing the trigger
somehow i'm already dead
the logic too twisted to figure
the tears are burning my eyes
the crystal droplets pierce the soul
bloodied with your multitude of lies
my poor heart is broken and cold
lips cracked and bleeding i still taste your kiss
body twisted and abused i still feel your hands
the bitter sweetness of our lust i can't help but miss
unreasonable love, i can't seem to understand
the memories alone are enough to kill me
the gun lies useless at my side
unbearable pain forces my eyes shut so i can't see
yet i witness the demonic ways you try to hide
with the gun in my hand once more
this can't possibly hurt more than you
the blast is deafening as i crash to the floor
soon without me, you'll be dead too