Seeking the wrong in the ended engagment

* I did not write in a very long time, but here is what I came up with.*



Body so cold
With no arms to hold me.
Lips so lonly
With out yours to comfort them.
My tears keep falling
But your hands are not there
To wipe them away.
Scars have amounted
Since your not there
To remind me how strong I truly am.
I am falling apart
Without you by my side.
I am suffering terribly
And it's my fault you left.
I pushed you away,
I refused to open up.
I lived in the shadows,
And you thrived in daylight.
You were always the optimist,
Smiling through it all.
You were the one
To guide my unguidful life.
But I was too ashamed of myself
To let you in.
To afraid to let you see
All the emotions I truly have.
I was too ashamed of me
To let you know that
I truly love you,
I still do.
But now your gone,
You have somone new.
Now I'm left here,
With my paper and my pen
Wondering why I pushed you away.
Because now,
I'm dying without you.
...And...
It's my own damn fault