Gone Forever

Sometimes I wonder is everyone against me?
Shall I not get what I want and when?
Another part of me has died and won't come back
Here I go, I'm blaming God once again

This starts as something going through my mind
A place to calm down is what I needed to find
This depression needed to be forgotten about
Someone left me that I couldn't live without
This friend knew what I was going through
Once a week I'd find my place among the trees
We'd hang out weekly find something to do
My mind was floating away within the breeze

I remember the good times that we would share
I remember the concert that only we went to
I just sit alone and to the wall I only stare
I think how is life going to be without you?
When she left you I only wondered to myself
Why you have to just leave us all for good
Things just never seem to be going my way
There's only one thing that I want to say

Will you be Gone Forever?
Will you ever be back again?
This sad time I'm losing a friend
It won't be okay in the end, never again

Sometimes I wonder am I to be depressed again?
It's not my own, but still I don't feel right
When I was down, I had this one and only friend
Only due to break up he vanished out of sight
Seems God wants me to have a depressing life
Anything to make me cut my arms with a knife
When I leave this life and on that same day
I will confront God and to his face I'd say

I want you Gone Forever
Never ever come back again
A part of me has just died inside
It won't be back in the end, never again