Unreal
cruel
hurtful
heartbreaking
betrayal
full of misery
dissapointing
politically fucked
no desire to live on
emptiness
darkness
loneliness
no success unless you achieve highly
people expecting too much of you
too much to handle
eventually being able to maintain on your own
only being able to carry on with a select few in the future
never know for sure who they will be
never know why you exist
pointless
a self-destructive pattern
until the day you die