The great feeling of you next to me
you love to do what you do
you all do
and I have lost my mind
I have lost everything
needles pierce the heart
knives stabbed into my back
I was sold out
best friends are not what they are meant to be
and love has gone to shit
nothing I do or say fixes anything
I give my heart and I get knocked over in return
is there nobody out there who cares
is there nobody who can just simply hear me out anymore
I feel forgotten unless needed for something
I feel like an object
I cannot seem to talk to anyone
I keep telling myself not to let it build up
but I continue to
I have broken down several times lately
but not in a fit of rage
but swarmed all in my own tears
I cannot stop
the most vital things I have in life are slipping away
slowly I'll have nothing
I never want to take it out on anyone but myself
I swore never to again
in any way shape or form
I cannot bear witness anymore to my own self suffering
once being able to look in the mirror and be proud
and now I see nothing
I see a tainted soul
I remain speechless as I stare up in the sky again
still searching for someone who really cares
no faith anymore but I still look above and ask above
one simple question I will continue to ask
Why?