Lost.... Again

I feel so lost inside
Don't know where to turn
Sitting here, All these tears I try to hide
You have set fire to my world
Now I get to sit back
And watch it burn

I float, facedown
In my sea of distress
All the while, decked out like a clown
Watched as plans unfurled
Collapsed, as they withered, turning black
Now I just lie here and pray for an egress

F*ck the world, let the tears fall like rain
See me burn in my disgrace
As I advertise my pain
Invisible scar, so slow to heal
As darkness consumes me I carve out my pain
See its marks on my face?

Should I turn my back on it all?
Away from the warmth, the light?
Can I turn back this time, if I fall?
No... I cannot do that, I need to feel
Even I fall I feel is tears like rain
As they fall, mixed with the blood on my face, to the floor

I just can't be hollow again.