A Midnight Conversation

Now I'm lost and you'll never find me

Would they even try?

I sit within the confines of my own prison

Can they see the bars?

All I want is to die and even when I try I can't

Would they miss you if you were gone?

I just don't want to feel my pain any longer

Can they feel your pain?

Only by night do I leave my house

Do they know why?

Cuz I try to hide

What kinda life is that?

To only live in the shadows

Would they live like that?

Now I'm coming out in the light

What will they say?

I will be all that I am nothing more can I promise

Will that be enough for them?

I will stand with pride for what I am


Can they see your inner-light?

All my weakness will be none next to my strength

Will it last through the day?

I am what I am nothing more nothing less

Can they accept that?

As a step out into your world I realize something

Will you be able to accept the knowledge?

I found out that we really are the same

How come you never saw it before?

Now that I know this my only question is

Why do they make you not want to live?

Why do they make you feel like shit?

Why do they want to keep you down?

Are they afraid of you?

Should they be?

Are you some kind of monster?

I don't know
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Well they sure seem to think so.

Well that doesn't matter it's what I think of myself that really counts.

You can say that all that you want but you know you dont really believe it, you can't lie to me.

I'm not lying I'm just not telling the whole truth that's different.

Not by my standards it isn't.

Well you don't really matter either, so there!!!

Now please stop acting like a baby, we have work to do.

What do you mean we have work to do?

Well, we can't just let people go around and walk all over you like that, I just won't accept it. They must be taken care of.

You don't mean kill them do you no I won't do it, that's wrong and I refuse to do it.

But think of all the times that they just treated you like dirt and tried to hurt you, better yet think of those who did hurt you. Those girls with their pretty make up and their fancy clothes and their high and mighty bitchy attitudes. We can't let them treat others the way they did you. We just can't let them...now that would be wrong.

I won't I can't it's just wrong please don't make me do it. Please don't make me do it. I don"t want to please please I don't want to!!!

You will do as you're told!!! You will find them and we will take care of them one by one.

Please just leave me alone I can't take it anymore please just leave I don't want you around anymore I won't do what you say.
it's just wrong.
please God no please God no!
please just leave me alone!
please!
just leave!
leave!

Why would you want that? Why would you say that? Aren't we friends? I though I was here to help you but if you don't want it then I'll have to give you the help anyways for your own good. Now let's get going.

Please no just leave! Leave!!! Get Out!!! NOW!!!
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!! LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK!!! DO YOU HEAR ME!!! I SAID LEAVE!!! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Is he gone? Please say he's gone, please just let him be gone....


I have deceided to make this an ongoing work...as soon as I have another conversation with myself I will post the new work. Thank you. -Chance-