firescape

(not sure if it needs more work....i just wrote this)






I feel the vertigo in your eyes

I fall out of control

Holding onto your hand

A broken carnation

Crushed beneath the weight



Flawed and unexpected.

My agony is my demise

And I flirt with disaster

Dancing through the fire

I tempt the edge to break off


Into the emptiness of being alone again.


I don’t want that



So I fall.




I tried to be pretty and pink for you.

But im all red and im fast with the feircesome

Gutted reality and its smiling down at me

Call, then cast me out

Its alright. I knew it would happen


But then:

You say what they all say.



And I’m falling faster


And im aware of the pain

Awake during the operation.


Every cut, every ounce of pressure.


The scream remains inside.


And my blood boils and cools



Hard as stone and broken for ice

In life’s bitter lemonade





(But these things I feel. They are so fast to make me understand .That I need this, I need it forever. And I’m getting too close again.)