Have you ever felt like the life your living
is not what was planned
Almost like the issues and the drama
has become more than you can stand

Do you ever think that at this point in life
you should beso much more
like at least a wife
or
maybe a mother
instead of fighting this war
inside myself

Have you ever wondered it would feel like
to just run away
from everyone and everything
with only the clothes on your back
have you ever tried like hell
to think of one good reason to stay
but failed

Do you ever doubt yourself
or
the long term effects
of the drugs that you use
is it really that hard
to look at things objectively
and
admit to yourself
that you lit your own fuse
of addiction

Have you ever created
a whole situation
entirly in your mind
and
believed in it completly
only to find out
not so discretly
that it was all a fabrication

Do you ever think of the damage
you inflict
with the cold steel flick
of your careless tounge
and
does it make you feel good to know
how bad it stung
as it flung
my feelings in my face

Have you ever felt a trace
of sorrow
for all we took forgranted
if I could only borrow
a memory
to replace the one implanted
then maybe
I could feel enchanted
with you once again

Do you ever miss the way
it used to be
when we'd would kick it
us
just you and me
Long before I opened the door
to what should have remained uunknown
between us
before we felt the sweat glisten
hot
skin to skin
before I started acting like a fucking whore
to please you
we had a choice
and
I should have used my voice
when you would still stop to listen