I don't understand
How we as a people can be so cold
when faced with the pain of another
that we can be so bold
to turn or backs and walk away
or casually tell them
to keep it undercover

I don't understand
why its so hard to communicate
why we don't take the time
to really HEAR eachother
is it really that hard to articulate
what it is we want to say
or is it jst easier to conceal
how it is we really feel

I don't understand
why we refuse to allow or pain to heal
do we find some perverse honor in the scars
that we so proudly reveal
as we belly up to the bar
and drink away our fears

I don't understand
why we give second chances
to killers and child molesters
reguardless of the circumstances
but
if its a third strike
no matter how petty the crime
people are spending their lives
in prison

I don't understand
why our youth are still fighting
over land they'll never own
killing one another off
in numbers that remain unknown

I don't understand
why we're prone to putting off
what can be done today
seeing life in terms of black and white
never giving notice
to all the different shades of grey

I don't understand
why we pray to an invisible god
to guide us
but still behave
as we damn well please
the way we let our beliefs
devide us
when millions of us
are still dying
of an incurable disease

I don't understand
why in a world where information
can be had with just a click
doctors are perscribing medication
to kids who are not sick
when they don't live up to expectations
or fit in with the right clique

I don't understand
why with the punches we roll
when we really want to object
how can we call ourselves free
when in chains we're bound
how can we attain our goals
when we can't protect
the rights that we've been given


I don't understand
how we can make any choice
when we have yet to see
all the options
why in birth we rejoice
when a whole nation of kids
are still up for adoption

I don't understand
why we give away
our own personal power
and set or belifes aside
when its money thats at stake
how can we hide up in our tower
silently watching
as they take away our pride

I don't understand
why babies are still born
addicted to crack
and other drugs
with all the steps we've taken
why we let our anger be held back
when it our world that is forsaken
as it nears the end

I don't understand
why I even care
when society is so appathetic
how is it my cross to bare
when everyones emotions
are so fucking synthetic

AND I FIND IT MORE THAN A LITTLE PATHETIC
THAT WE ALLOW OUR JUDGEMENT TO BE IMPAIRED
BY THE PROJECTION OF A FEW
WHO WHEN AT A LOSS FOR REASONS
ITS DRUGS THAT TAKE THE BLAME

I live with my share of shame
that kids carry guns for protection
but still have unprotected sex
unaware that the choices made today
will reflect
on who they'll be tomarrow
uneffected by the fact
that they get back only what the give
I tell all this
as I sit here
wrapped up in sorrow
for the life I chose to live
oh so many
years ago