Even God is Crying for Me

By Midnight Phoenix

A minister once told me “God has special plans for you”
My reply was a blank stare of disbelief, how unfaithful
Yet I somehow feel as though he was right
For the first time someone else noticed my inner glow

So self-righteous, yet faithless in this blink of existence
Though deeper than skin, but not without modesty
I choose walk the path alone, answering to no one
I will die for my own sins

Now God cries for me, his fantasies denied
Wondering why I didn’t accept the benefits package with this job
All I need is faith they say, but I need no Shepard
Because I see how sheep will play when God’s eyes are turned

I know in the end I’ll still find acceptance if I’m wrong
For my own sake, I hope I am wrong for that matter
But for now I will let this inner glow guide me
And hope to find others on this path

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Published on Sunday, October 26, 2003. Filed under: "Short Story"

Comments on "Even God is Crying for Me"

A former member wrote: i walk with you
On Thursday, April 21, 2005, Saint_Reaper (200) wrote:

uh huh.............
On Monday, November 10, 2003, WinterGrave (258) wrote:

personaly, i do not believe in god, if he was anything like the bible and other people tell me then we would not be living in this shit hole of a world we live in, i believe we make our own paths by the desisions we make everyday.
On Monday, November 10, 2003, WinterGrave (258) wrote:

Great write, it got me thinking.~~~Grave
On Tuesday, October 28, 2003, diavolessa (207) wrote:

the understanding of the issues on this poem is rather "addictive", I could almost say I learned something! Wonderful... {dia}
On Sunday, October 26, 2003, maddin foxxxy (358) wrote:

You should always let your inner glow guide you....I am amazed by a sense of wisdom in this one....the message is much appreciated...well done once again Brandon!
On Sunday, October 26, 2003, manywalks (747) wrote:

Provoking piece you have penned here for us. Much enjoyed.
On Sunday, October 26, 2003, Sinnocence (49) wrote:

i gathered that he is choosing to shun organized religion in an effort to follow his own path? maybe thats just me though. im really sad i didnt see this one right away! its a wonderful write
On Sunday, October 26, 2003, Delilah (113) wrote:

Yeah...that makes sense too...agrees with that one also...hmm...~Delilah~
On Sunday, October 26, 2003, Delilah (113) wrote:

Excelente!! My father is a pastor, I've been doing the church thing for years...and know how you feel. *pauses while she tries to find the right words...* I believe that there's someone out there, but I also believe that we're all on our own...did I int
On Sunday, October 26, 2003, Delilah (113) wrote:

did I interpret that correctly? *sigh*...who knows....~Delilah~