i feel alone
and i feel hated 
i feel like nothing matters 
cliche though
i feel alone
i feel alone
like the worlds oceans
faced a small pepple stone
you get mad 
for no reason at all
and so does dad
my emotions are raw
i feel like i embarrass you 
like i dont deserve your affection 
i feel like im lost
going my own direction
is that what bothers You most?
that i choose my own way?
and were not getting to close?
as we once used to 
dear mother and daughter
dear mother and daughter
dissapeared has my father
father i love
father i hate
father i dont know
but he's standing right in my face
and this stupid mind of mine
who cant difference the real world
from my dumb invented fantisies
and these hurtful thoughts
eat my heart like disease
were is my baby?
were is my man?
did he go away?
did he fade into sand?
does he ignore me?
like my freind said he does
does he love me?
i want to trust
the major people in my life
whom for i deeply care
make me feel like im nothing
draw me into dispair
sometimes this is
and sometimes its not
but i dont even know
i guess i once knew i forgot
but it could all just be in my head
my stupid brain with stupid thoughts