I am fucking crazy, but I am free

By Razor-kissed-wrists

My name is Taylor
I have depression
Several addictions
Like cutting
Pills
Smokes
I suffer from an eating disorder
Called EDNOS
Because I will never see what you see
I push everyone away
Because once they know me
They'll just leave
I spend most nights on the streets
Alone in my car
I can't afford to run it all night
So most nights, I freeze
I spend my time with men I don't know
Because of my dad
I have an unfillable hole
I cry a lot more than I ever have
Because I want nothing more than freedom
My own rules
I run from all my problems
And I don't see a problem with that
Try to understand, if you can
I am fucking crazy
But I am free

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Published on Sunday, June 2, 2013. Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

Everybody wonders why I love Lana Del Rey so much. It's because her songs describe my life so much. In so many ways.

Comments on "I am fucking crazy, but I am free"

A former member wrote: to be so honest is the way to become truly free... you hold nothing back here and that is brave, so you know you can be brave... again, great write
On Sunday, June 2, 2013, haunted (837) wrote:

this is really good, im glad to see your openly coming out of your walls. that's a big deal razor. keep writing and live out those harmful abusive punishments and put it out on paper. live it, feel it, be there in the throws of crippling depression. its so therapeutic and I would love to see you act out in poetry. this is beautiful razor! awesome!
On Sunday, June 2, 2013, Electric-Chair (121) wrote:

Locked in your own head is far from free, but crazy you are not, a telling read with passion strength, Thank you for being so raw
On Sunday, June 2, 2013, Devilish (2633) wrote:

Tell it like it is baby. hell yeah.. i'm an alcoholic drug addict pill popping sick fuck.. and i love you