Dear Diary, I am twelve years old.

By TornPieces

Dear Diary,

I am twelve years old.....my name escapes me.
When I go on the computer, people always ask me what I am wearing....
I wanted someone to tell how much I like puppies, how much I love making my own bookmarks..but they didnt care.

Diary, my mother slapped me today but its ok.

Diary....today is a new day...
my step father..he told me we would play our game again..
he said this means love......
he said, if I did it...I could get a new doll.

Dear Diary,
I got a new doll today...
.I know 12 is old for dolls...
all the girls at school would laugh at me if they knew I had her....
but, I feel like I need her....I feel smaller ....instead of bigger....
maybe one day I will grow up.

Dear Diary,

I am 21 years old........
but no...I am twelve....inside this body of a 21 year old..
.I hold my doll every night....sometimes I even catch myself sucking my thumb....
the mother hates me...
diary, I am still twelve...
diary I am still eleven...
diary.... why do I feel so small......the world sees me one way....but Im shrinking inside...
all I want to do diary...is be able to go to the park..
to play....
Dear Diary..I am twelve years old. Save me.

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Published on Tuesday, September 4, 2012. Filed under: "Abuse" and "Poetry"

Comments on "Dear Diary, I am twelve years old."

A former member wrote: good job......keep it up
On Wednesday, October 24, 2012, Electric-Chair (121) wrote:

keep writing, ink can be the best release, you are safe here :) Best EC
A former member wrote: This is one of the greatest things I've read in awhile. I love it to the very end, though it made me sad, knowing that exact feeling.
A former member wrote: very well wrritten, i love the idea of portraying the diary. i can relate, if i was writing it, i'd be eight......we just have to find our strength inside, you'll find yours i know it!
On Friday, September 7, 2012, TornPieces (27) wrote:

Thank you everyone for your kind comments....I appreciate each one. writing this helped me get out a lot. ~Torn
On Wednesday, September 5, 2012, xZombie Poptartzx (332) wrote:

It's tough. Peoples actions or words can make you feel smaller and smaller... You just have to find that light inside you, that makes you feel more your size :)
On Tuesday, September 4, 2012, matteus (28) wrote:

this is beautiful and touching a way no one should have to feel:/ fuck society and there morals and rules
A former member wrote: i'm sorry.
On Tuesday, September 4, 2012, Invisible Girl (134) wrote:

Aww baby- I am sending you a hug through the screen..You are talented with your choice of words.. you made this reader feel your words- as painful as they were. Keep writing..let your healing begin by putting it in ink.
On Tuesday, September 4, 2012, ApathysKiss (377) wrote:

=[ you need to tell someone.
On Tuesday, September 4, 2012, Maladroit (198) wrote:

... Goodness... That was tough to read