My Love is Wrong...?

By Aernor

Everytime I try to forget
these thoughts in my head
they turn to regret
leaving my soul, dead.

Trusting my heart to lead
ignoring basic rules of love
kissing a boy, the only deed
and feeling as free as a dove

But these feelings are wrong
they can surely never be
the world's relentless song
they will never ever see.

Why did god curse me so
to see my heart's desire
and never be able to know
if my spark could start a fire

And tears of sorrow I cry
crimson lines across my wrist
I have thought this to be a lie
these feelings'll never turn to mist

I wish that I could kiss your face
society will take me without a trace
and I wish that I could tell you,
Babe, I love you! Love is not a race.

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Published on Saturday, March 17, 2012. Filed under: "Love" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

This is something that really comes from the deepest pain in my heart... I've never admitted that I'm gay to anyone. So last night I thought that there could be no better way to show how I feel than to write a poem about it. To express all of my feelings.

Comments on "My Love is Wrong...?"

On Sunday, March 31, 2013, harlequinn (9) wrote:

Wow. This poem is deep and meaningful, and I respect you for expressing yourself in such a heartfelt manner. My one issue is that I feel like you could have done an even better job by not rhyming; as this restricts the flow of the poem in some cases. Other than that, this was quite close to perfection.
A former member wrote: Reading this brought back memories from my past - I can feel your pain. I been there & still am. I wish I can just be free & escape my fears, but in reality there's always that group of people who will judge anyone for being different. That's why I learned to erase them from my present & live the life I wanna live. â™¥
On Sunday, March 18, 2012, Aernor (11) wrote:

Thanks. I'll try that.
On Saturday, March 17, 2012, Devilish (2633) wrote:

Hunny I am 38 years old and the one thing i regret is not allowing myself to love the one i wanted to love. fuck these sterotypical rules of a flawed nature. you can anyone your heart desires.. Who ever doesnt like it can bite it. For the most beautiful emotions in the world can only be felt if your heart is free to do so. don't deny yourself of what your heart desires.. It will only lead to failure and misery.. and to be miserable for who?. the ones that make the rules.. who are they?.. everyday human beings with an oppinion.. whose matters more?.. yours!! untill you come out dont go without love.. even if from behind closed doors. much respect..
On Saturday, March 17, 2012, Aernor (11) wrote:

Thanks for that. I wish that people could see that it's not only their opinion that matters but your own and everything that they say can either build you up as a human being or break you down. My mother hates me and looks at me as if I'm hellspawn, so yeah... Hope things cooldown though. I appreciate the comment. I shouldnt give a shit what other people think cause love comes first. =)
A former member wrote: I know the feeling, i came out last week, its hard, but know that when u deside to do so, it pays off :)
On Saturday, March 17, 2012, Aernor (11) wrote:

Thanks. I hope you're right cause atm it's really bad.