Nervous

Sitting on you sofa bed,
Nervous.
Chewing on the button of my shirt.
Nervous.
Clawing at the scars on my wrist.
Nervous.
Hoping you don't notice my battle scars.
Nervous.
Hoping again you think they are from war and not drunk gang fights.
Nervous.
Biting my lower lip.
Nervous.
Chewing my nails to the nub.
Nervous.
Hoping your mom doesn't walk in because that would be totally embarrassing.
Nervous.
Hoping your dad thinks you are jumping on the bed.
Nervous
Hoping I can hide in your closet if he doesn't.
Nervous.
Hearing you get ready in the bathroom.
Nervous.
Hand shaking as I begin to strip into my wife-beater.
Nervous.
Hands running repeatedly through my hair.
Nervous.
Hearing you open the door.
Nervous.
Closing my eyes.
Nervous.
Watching you step towards me ready for the challenge.
Nervous.
Hearing you say, 'It's on'
Nervous.
Knowing you will beat me.
Nervous.
Because I love to suck.
Nervous.
I've never done this before.
Nervous.
My family is poor.
Nervous.
I don't own the type of stuff you do.
Nervous.
Yep your going to beat me at a video game.
Nervous
COD at that.
Game on.