we all die as Gods

I wake with regreat, the sun pissing
apon my face like the ugliness of life.
I plead for rest as the moon laughs in my face.
as the voices of my past scream in my head.
desires of release. I fall victom to the lies
of humanity, no fucking more! I wanna watch the world burn to embers. I want to see these false front Ideas. I see who I was transforming from
worm to man, I am the blood drenched fist intrails torn from the stomach of the thief of my sanity.
I see the misery in this world
why the pain to go on.
why the tears to laughter,
laying in restraints, room steel
door and a band plays as haldol and ativan
calm my trembleing, bleeding hands.
a HATE,and depression I just want to end,
to have friends and a girl i can trust.
 the sun pissing on my face, I live to see
another day. Fear consumes me, perinoa takes over and my anxity chokes me. peace of mind seams to be my everlasting delusion.