If There's One Thing You Remember...
By lordshadow
You've twisted, tainted all the memories I have of you
You've taken
all your honesty and made it so untrue
You've changed my world forever,
you just never knew the cost
I can't afford to stay here, knowing
always that I'm lost
I can still detect the smoothness on my
calloused skin
An infinite reminder of where that ring had been
My finger traces absently along the shallow scar
I knew that you
were gone, but I just didn't know how far
I wept for many days
and at night I searched for sleep
Praying every minute you were there
to see me weep
That you could feel a fraction of this pain that never
dies
That I could see a tiny bit of trauma in your eyes
That
you could be familiar with this feeling of despair
Or the bile rising
in my throat each time I know he's there
Sitting right beside you
while we're yelling on the phone
Complacently replacing me, and now
I'm all alone
I just can't take this anymore, I wish this wasn't
real
I traded you my heart for yours, I thought we had a deal
I
do believe you have no soul, I know you have no heart
You stole the
life we built and then you ripped it all apart
You played me
like I made you, like a sick sadistic game
And I just want you to
remember that I'll never be the same