Got told to today that ‘I never’
Is not proper English
I thought I was clever
When I told you I never

I never smoked that last rock
Didn’t make that wish
never sucked his cock
never locked you out

I never betrayed and used
Smashed and destroyed
Burnt all your clothes
Never denied the addiction
That I am

Whether or not you believe
It or not, all the lies locked me in
Tied that last knot
I never even knew I was destroying everything

It seemed easier that way
Never stole it only borrowed forever
Never believed , never behaved
Never conceived that there
Was no never

Never told you I loved you
Never helped you through
Never held you honestly
Never saw into you

One thing I know I’ll never
Forget, what you said when we last Met.
What you wore, what your eyes looked
Like, deep brown fervent pools
I could swim in forever

I wish I’d never said that I never
I wish I’d been honest
Helpful and true
Held on to you like you were new

But now your gone
And I’ll never know what could have been,
My love, my soul
I'll never forget my regret
Never.