sadmadness

before i go
just have to know
why've had no one though
a million follow
only to leave me hollow
&
i'm only thinking of you
i've turned grey blue & untrue
nothing i wouldn't do for you
that's all that's fucking true

I'm
stoned
thrown
blown
&
alone

fuck the bull shit
this is my worst trip
watch my soul spit
reasons we don't fit
& feel like shit
always in need of a
fucking hit
now we're done & split
from our only pit
so this is hell
don't we feel so well
(yeah right*oh well)
forced to be in hell
fuck this cell
i can't dwell
in this shell
can you fucking tell
me why
i
can't just simply fucking
die

it's not strange
just arranged

found to be lost again
i'm covered in sickest sin
always fucking trippin
these tormenting feelings
oppress me even while dreaming
now i'm over
can't be sober
but i want to start over

it's too late
i did break

now i can't bare
wish i did care
i will still dare
fuck i'm so scared

my comedy
sadmadmess
must be
from all this stress
&
into your frown
is where i will drown
left bound
to disturbing old sound
so i retreat underground
only there i'll be found
me & my
sadmadness

is it norm
to take on such a form
born
to be fucking torn

don't follow
i'm hollow
fucking sorrow
now & tommorrow

life is just one day
meant to just be played
soon we'll all decay
doesn't matter if you pray
go ahead be gay
everythings gone astray
& everybody is ok

though the halls
always fall
on the small
the way out
is to fuck it all
& get over the wall
or dig a hole
&
fucking crawl

empty thought
heavy heart
lost soul
asshole
fuck pain
it strains
the blood out
my veins
my brain
is chained
to pain
now only hurt
reighns
all that remains
is the same
i feel we're both to blame

rebith the only answer to this hurt
rebirth sadmadness we cannot reherse


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