You Would Be Me

Here I am again, not on, but between the lines I write;
It has to be said just so, for no alibi is airtight.

My existence slows to a crawl, as I'm painfully prodded along;
A description of my life? Yes, it is, one long sad song.

The song everybody listens to, but no one wants to hear;
Not one that incites joy, but would have you shed a tear.

Even though it's very painful, I must listen to every line;
For fear I might miss the part, that helps me turn back time.

An inglorious machine of sorts, and if I were time's captain ?
First thing, I'd change the kiss, the one fate never let happen.

Oh what we would give, though it'd be just another illusion;
If we could do it over again? It'd be yet one more intrusion.

What the first time needed changed, would still be wrong the second;
The end result would be no different, when comes the day to reckon.

The sands that fill the shapely glass, run out faster than we think;
Who'll be in time to get rescued? And who merely on the brink?

Go down with the ship, that's the noble thing they say;
I've DONE that, no thanks, look where I am today.

The battles I fight are tough ones, that's without a doubt;
Will I be victorious? Most likely I'll just quietly bleed out.

What is my DESTINY? That's no longer a valid word;
I used to listen intently, SILENCE was all I heard.

I suppose it had to turn out this way, EXAMPLE for all to see;
If you fought your whole life for everything, and got nothing,

YOU WOULD BE ME.