i dont know wether to be angry sad or mad at you i just cant feel anything rightnow..

when i see you i hurt so much inside and it kills me to write this but i know i have to so i dont hurt my self

im sick of this how come you couldnt anser any of my questions

why couldnt you stay

why did you stop loving me

why do leave

why dont you care

when did you stop lovin me

do you even care any more?

today was like a fucking mistake i shouldnt have fucking gone i knew i looked happy but on the inside it fle like i was going to fucking explode. i was just missing everything

missing your arms arouund me

missing your hands laced around mine

missing my head on your chest

missing you being with me

missing your laughter

missing those saturday nights together on the couch

watching movies

missing you scaring me

missing your sarcasm

missing spending time with you

missing the skipping

missing homecoming

dancing so close to you

to almost everyslow song there was

and at the end you'd kiss my forehead

and tell me you loved me

missing you...just you

im tired of you not ansering my fucking questins giving me fucking exscuses insted of just facing the god damnd fucking truth..

GOD FUCKIN DAMNT

why the hell wont you anser me?

why wont you look at me

are you that ashamed?

do you really not care

DONT FUCKING THINK I WANT YOU BACK CUZ IM TRYING TO PIECE MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER..MAYBE LATER...jk....BUT GOD DAMNIT WHY THE HELL DID YOU HAVE TO WAIT SO GOD DAMND LONG....I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND NOW I CANT EVEN FUCKING TELL THE ONE I REALLY LOVE THAT ACTUALLY MIGHT LOVE ME THAT I LOVE THEM...i keep thinking does he just love me now when im down and hurt and will he be around tomorow?? and i know thats not completely your fault but it doesnt help that you just completly left me hanging with no fucking explanatin

im sorry but im not going to be nice about this any more...you have no fucking idea how much it fucking hurts to have to start over again i built so many walls so that i wouldnt get hurt and the second i let my guard down...you tear me apart and now there is no way to fix it and why the hell am i like this you've hurt me before and now i cant even fuking breathe i hate this i was so un hurt and able to be on my own and now..im just like a fallen animal and i cant fucking get the fuck up
DONT FUCKING TELL ME ITS GUNNA BE OFUCKINGK CUZ I M GOING TO HAVE TO SLAP THAT DAMN SMUG OFF YOUR GOD DAMND FACE