I Read Your Lips and Jumped Off Every Cliff

By Fading_Smile

Front row funeral service
white-knuckled loneliness
I miss myself more

Getting tipsy off your words
beration and miscommunication
I'm blushing from your clown antics

You buried me above ground
never ceasing ivy laughter restraints
your empty eyes squeeze me harder

Ragdoll in handcuffs
you shoved everything into the
pit of your snapping comebacks

And I sewed my own lips shut
I won't give you the pleasure of
hearing me scream "bloody suicide"

Your words had me off balance
so I covered my own ears and
dove into a pool of mistakes

The apologies lingering on your lips
read nothing but encouragement
to my near deaf ears

My misunderstanding made it so much
easier to pull the trigger, unfelt
when I'm dead to myself already

Revive me

Until then
I'll hide behind my bangs
drown myself in black
and watch my smile fade

I keep killing myself
but I wake up here everytime

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Published on Wednesday, July 19, 2006. Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Comments on "I Read Your Lips and Jumped Off Every Cliff"

A former member wrote: This is very moving. Thank you.
A former member wrote: yeah I know last to jump on the bandwagon and fav. Welcome aboard young blood.
A former member wrote: Mother fuck..gah. I hate when people leave me wordless and I go back to my trailor roots like i aint got no good sense. ~Lost
On Saturday, July 22, 2006, mywristshurt (408) wrote:

damn.. this almost made me cry.. you have such a way with words.. but i don't want you to die! you're to good of a friend to me! and i can see a lot of people like the way you write.. b/c it was really good.. well, ttyl
On Friday, July 21, 2006, Tonights Decision (137) wrote:

Damn, this was good, i felt it looming in the corner of my eye, and then it came..
On Friday, July 21, 2006, monalisamarie (113) wrote:

You buried me above ground ....sweet line...actually, I just love the whole thing
A former member wrote: so i covered my own ears and dove into a pool of mistakes... Magic said it best (damn him) :)
On Thursday, July 20, 2006, Army Barbie (324) wrote:

Oh wow, I think I almost stopped breathing for a moment. I think I just found a new love.
A former member wrote: You have a great skill, the words, and the way they are placed was amazing, great write
On Thursday, July 20, 2006, TaintedButterfly (670) wrote:

Good grief Blake. I felt as if I were being held down and not let up! You really are a talent to be reckoned with dear. This was brutal, yet amazing! *hugs* Julia~
A former member wrote: Reading those last two last six lines it was like watching your portrait (from your profile) being etched then erased before my eyes for your name's sake.. this was an emotionally overdriven write. Extremely powerful imagery. Well done.
A former member wrote: By the way, I'm in love with your titles. :)
On Wednesday, July 19, 2006, kiss of the dark (32) wrote:

"My misunderstanding made it so much easier to pull the trigger..." This was wrenching and yet breathlessly unflawed. Great....
On Wednesday, July 19, 2006, BroKen-GlaSSHeArT (69) wrote:

i like the idea of not being able to die and wanting to, beacuse somtimes freedom is death alone,great write