this really does hurt the most

i just started typing...so if you hate just tell me


There was this girl.
A lonely little girl, though she could get almost any one to do any thing for her,
she was all alone.
she went to school like other children,
played with them, laughed with them, ate with them, and grew up with them.
Until that one dark day, she was told she was moving.
She became horrified and ran to her room.
She didn’t leave it for days,
not to eat, not to talk to any one she just shut them all out.
when she got to the dreaded place called home in san Antonio texas she hated it for a while then it grew on her.
She began a new school and a new life.
While she never thought she would leave again but all dreams must come to a end.
She had to move once again.
This time she took it well she did not put she did not cry.
She simply said “ ill have to make up a new lie”
“Another move, another summer, another day;” she thought,”what a bummer”
this time it was a little different.
The lonely girl found people like her.
She lived her life which wasn’t a lie, she lived her life and didn’t cry.
Til the day she met “the guy”

He had dark hair, fair skin, and loving eyes.
He could control her with just three little words.she loved him…
but he did not love her.
He played her little game for the while he was there.
He told her he loved her,
massaged her breasts, and held her when she needed to be held
. But the whole thing was just a scheme.
He wanted some ass and she was an easy target.
The day she realized this she found it too late…
For when the baby’s due date came
He wasn’t there


two years and almost 2 million diapers later.
and the beautiful baby boy named alex
is learning to talk
his first word...
mommy

he doesnt know
and she doesnt care
if he wants to know he'll ask someday.
but right now he needs a bath
with mash potatos in his hair
and gravy on his chair



now that fifteen years have passed
she feels tired and old
shes done her best to raise
the child to a man
he's going to college
a little early....


he knows
and he's tried to find him
but the only trace
is trucker stops
gas pumps
crack whored
and drugs galore

he know
she doesnt care
he asked that one day
now he has to pack and move away
go to college and (as he says)
be a man