Parasite

I'll pretend I'm happy
I'll make believe it's real
I'll band-aid the wounds you don't want to heal
I'll rewrite history
I'll lock the box
I'll close all the doors & turn back the clocks

You want to understand me
But you can't comprehend
So you close your eyes to who I am & you make me pretend
Your self-centered frustration
From your perfect little life
Makes you intolerable to the pain inflicted by your rubber knife

Your indecisive & unreliable
I've come to realize this
Despite the fantasies you coated over the reality that exists
You try to burn & destroy
The pages of my book
Just so you would have something to show for the innocence you took

But still you're not satisfied
With all the choas that you've caused
You think you've devoured me but I found all your flaws
Emotionally you're dead to me
But you manage to find a way
To bind my heart & paint it in all your shades of gray

I'm forever attached to you
Despite my will to leave
You're the parasite upon my back, forever a part of me