Numb

Numb
I need you
I want you
I can't live without you
I only feel you
When I'm hurting myself
So I try to go without you
The numb, that I so desperately need
Numb
Leave me alone
Make me not long for you
Make it so you don't appeal so to me
Give me back the feeling
That you take away
This feeling may hurt me
But at least I can feel
Numb
The yearning for you
Makes me want to find a new blade
Watch blood droplets form
Or ingest the cancerious smoke
Or Swallow dozens of pain killers
Numb
Go the hell away
Leave me alone
Fuck you
I hate you
But I need you
I want to survive without you
But I can't bring myself to do that
I'm leaving numb
Even if you won't let me go
Oh fuck
Something else went wrong
I'm once again
Searching for the NUMB