Uselessness

Several years passing
confusion and uncertainty
because being attached to things
is a bad thing to do
I hate myself constantly for this
it is as if I need somone to live
but I know I do not
however the loneliness eats away at me
but I become too scared to try again
refusing all possibilty
I then regain hope again
constantly turned down
but I get up
and I keep on going
and going...
and going...
until I no longer have anything to believe in
realizing what I have been told
it may just be true
being questioned upon
why I seek somebody
why I want to be able to love again
it is clear to me now though
that there really is no purpose
thanks for caring, really
and now I feel so goddamn useless...