Do not tell me you love me
I cannot bear witness to your constant lies
I refuse to subject myself to being hurt again
and I no longer want to hurt you either
I want the best for the two of us
I thought it could be with each other
but you do not seem to think so
so we both seek another

Time and time again we both seem to have been screwed over
I no longer want to be a reason for it
but you have changed
changed into someone I do not know
and thus is why I am now this way
I cannot allow the past to repeat itself

Yet there comes a time
where we both again become vulnerable
emotional and hurt by another
somewhere inside we know
somehow, we can still confide in another
or at least you know so for me...

I tried to blow it off
but I've become sucked in again
the times we have had
the times we do have
after much hatred
the feelings slowly resurface
for a while I become immune
but it does not continue

I put myself out there
and maybe that is a mistake
do I subject myself to this pain?
I really do care for you still
but goddammit, why do I still love you?