Fragile Feelings

Somebody guide me to save thyself
someone stray me away from this hell
one day and I already suffer
while you probably sit and laugh it up
I would be lying at this point though
if I said I never did the same

Back and forth
here we go
where we stop
nobody knows
one insult after the other

(WHY?)

Insanity consuming
cannot relax
as the attitude continues
we both care no more
so quick to point the finger
I would rather die then have to do this

(WHY?!?)

Black
alone
disturbed
heartbroken
unstable

Why are we not able
to fix things that can be so simple?

Why must it all be a complicated mess?

Why must I get so angry I do the same things I hate that you do?

Why must we be so uptight?
so quick to turn the tables
to defend ourselves
even if it drowns the other person
in a world full of sorrow

Why must we forget about each others feelings?

Dead inside
and nothing to do
I am stuck on another restless night
once again, without you

Conflicting acts of tension
consisting mostly of four letter words
I just have to indicate that it hurts

Used to all be so picture perfect
and the dream fades...

Can I not share the feelings I still have?
god help me...

I'm breaking down again...

breaking...down...

breaking...

down...

down...

down...

(why?)

Everywhere I look I see your face
as if you are near
until I realize there is no trace
no longer, no more, you have left me
and I as well have left you
the tears yet again fall from these eyes

So blessed when able to look upon your prescence...

NOW YOU LEFT ME TO SUFFER ALONE

LEFT FOR DEAD I TELL YOU...

LEFT FOR DEAD!

(Oh my god...I'm so sorry...)

What have I done?
What have I truly become?
but I am not the only one
yet alone accused constantly

I try to go back to sleep again
head constantly smashing into my pillow
goddammit...somebody help...
come back...

(It's 6:19...)

WHY MUST IT BE THIS WAY!

Lost the will to live
the will to fight
the will to love and care
what is the point?

Who am I kidding...

goddammit...

(why...)