Broken Down Just For You

A headache
after bursting into tears
and much hurt
all of it just for you

You may take this the wrong way
but I am ready to leave you
to what extent is determined by you
my views have drastically changed

I mix the facts with reality
and put things in place for me
I no more want what I wanted before
nothing more do I want but you being happy

This is it, I step down
this is what you wanted
do not ask me to step back up
I will not
I cannot make you happy

(and so I cry...)

I have been in your shoes before
you must know
I am not here to hurt you but only to help
you sit in silence

(I continue to cry)

I finish my ranting and raving
and I say this cause only god knows
what it is doing for you
do not know anymore what to do for you

(my head becomes heavy)

I ask for a brief leave
I had to recover
make sure everything was alright
get myself out of my own insanity

(but the headache just gets worse)

Went through thick and thin
and do not know what else to say to you
I make a desperate offer to you
and you are a goner before I know it...

Goodnight...

(I face the wall in dispair wanting to cry again)

Come back to my senses with your voice again
apologizing for things
I do not care
I tell you it is ok
do not even bother
forget the promises
forget everything
I am glad you are ok

Now I just need time
I do not know if I can be with you right away again
because I need time to myself to recover
and rid the sudden throbbing pain in my head
because I am broken down just for you
and for some reason deep inside I still love you too...