this is how I love you

By Saint Sentient

I want to:
crawl under your skin baby.
make your blood boil with lust. dreams
and show you what love is.
then crush you.

I want to see you cry the tears that deserve to fall.

and your heart is cold. I want to shatter it.
I'd never dream physical pain on you dear. just mental anguish
and oh. how I'd revel in it.

no. I'd never wish death on you.
I just hope someone that you love dies.

I want you to cringe in disgust when you breathe.
and I want you to fucking hurt.
dear love. I never want you to be happy.
and I'd gladly slit my wrists in front of you. if only
I'd have the pleasure of seeing your face
everytime you tried to sleep.
with that on your fragile mind.

I want you to die emotionally.
but live forever.

this is how I love you.

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Published on Monday, October 3, 2005. Filed under: "Poetry"

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Comments on "this is how I love you"

A former member wrote: Soo fucking brilliant. A masterpiece. Words can't describe. I love it. So powerful and deep.
A former member wrote: Wow! That's heavy. I love it! I can so relate with the desire to school a thoughtless and selfish person in the meaning of true, deep, inner, emotional pain!
On Thursday, July 8, 2010, Wiccad (124) wrote:

Nice. I wish I could write like this.
On Monday, April 12, 2010, Miztaken4beauty (176) wrote:

Wanting someone to be in eternal pain. pay back is a bitch, Love it.
On Friday, February 6, 2009, Vicious Pixie (58) wrote:

dark,possessive,a touch crazy-jealous. liked this a lot
On Saturday, April 19, 2008, Mari (419) wrote:

spiteful, and it's so love.
On Saturday, March 22, 2008, Army Barbie (316) wrote:

Holy crap. Such anger is so beautiful.
On Friday, March 21, 2008, Bluegirl (177) wrote:

Ooh, biting! It is so easy to understand what you mean here. I love this.
On Thursday, January 3, 2008, Lynaes (854) wrote:

Oh. Hell. Yes.
On Thursday, January 3, 2008, xserratedsoulx (212) wrote:

"no. I'd never wish death on you. I just hope someone that you love dies."-great line!!!!!
A former member wrote: wow, this was an amazing write that made me feel so much. Thank you..
On Saturday, July 7, 2007, thelostmessenger (110) wrote:

i echo Ruined... so powerful. surely this is a favorite of mine. it made me... feel... differently. amazing. *messenger
On Saturday, May 12, 2007, BeautifullyRuined (93) wrote:

Powerful...made me smile for some twisted reason.
On Tuesday, December 12, 2006, beautifulfallenangel (62) wrote:

love it love it love it......BEAUTiful..... BEAUTY encase in a vengence poem............ love it
A former member wrote: I absolutely love this. I have always wanted someone to hurt for me. This is an amazing way to describe it.
On Tuesday, November 21, 2006, Mylissa (825) wrote:

This is an obsession of love, insanely beautiful.
On Wednesday, May 17, 2006, Dei (663) wrote:

Harboring hatred can do wonders for creativity. Too bad creativity runs hand in hand with destruction. - Natelle
On Tuesday, May 16, 2006, Army Barbie (316) wrote:

Shit
On Tuesday, May 16, 2006, Army Barbie (316) wrote:

And let me futher that by saying: Holy shit. The anger in this is beauty...if only my ex could read that. Haha, yeah right like his little Army mind could understand such graceful anger.
A former member wrote: hahaha *applauds, ovation* this is emaculent in ception.... the line about the slitting wrists... very much a thought I've had... it would do no good without seeing the pain. The end of this is beyond words
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, sIo (898) wrote:

love is hate.
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, Kali Ma (43) wrote:

wow, this was the most amazing hate poem I've ever read. So torturous and cruel yet delightfully written! ~ Asheai
On Tuesday, October 4, 2005, MESUN (230) wrote:

excellent. just fucking excellent. i know this ideology well. i have felt this and still do. amazing how you put it into words.