you decide

I’m searching through this darkness,
And I can’t find the light.
All I feel is wrong, all I see is spite
And I'm so afraid to tell you exactly what I feel
So afraid all my fears will slowly become real.
And all I want to is get rid of all this hurt
But time is like the rain and my mind is like the dirt.
My sanity feels like its being washed away…
This pain inside my head is leading me astray
Now im so afraid that after knowing this you’ll go,
Now that you’ve finally seen…im the lowest of the low.
I hate myself more than you ever could
Maybe when im gone, I’ll have finally done some good