just a painful reminder of love still in my head

just a little cut would end it all in a flash

just a lifetime of suffering and sorrow

just a little cut would end it all

but why do i hesitate why do i not end it?

i guess im having to much fun being miserable

maybe i enjoy the sorrow and pain

could it be that it is euphoric

i knew life would not be fair

i knew it would be difficult to understand

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No i dont enjoy the pain

no i dont enjoy the sorrow

and no im not having fun being miserable

they reason i dont make the incision is simple

im having to much fun with my anger and hatred towards her and the world

it feeds the fire that is slowly swelling deep inside my blackened soul

the fire burns and rage is the fuel

the more they give me that happier i am

oh please give me more for i live only to hate

love is no longer my concern

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but maybe one day i wont be like that

just maybe some one will put water on that fire deep inside my soul

hopefully for the sake of the world that day is soon...